Emotional Times  

As Salaamu Alaikum wa Rahmatullah

I pray that everyone is well. As for my family and I we are well and striving hard, Alhamdulillah.

Ramadan has come and gone. I felt like my best friend has left and I’m unsure of their return. It seemed as if Ramadan went rather quickly. Ramadan was very peaceful for me. I didn’t let or have a lot of outside disturbances from outside people. That was wonderful and that allowed me more time for what mattered. I hope that everyone’s Ramadan was peaceful and strengthening for you and your families. May Allah accept from you and me, Ameen.

 Many of us may be just beginning our homeschool journey and for some of us it already has begun. As always I start to become consumed and emotional about schooling. If you were to ask some, that is a given for me to be emotional so I say that I was more emotional than usual.

Emotional about what? well ...books, lessons and how to achieve a better year for my children. How do I push forward, sometimes this can become overwhelming trying to figure this out. I just want for my children to be successful religiously and academically. I do believe this holds true for all of us.

Now I move to a new phase of worrying, worrying and more worrying. Well, this is what I started to do. My heart was so heavy just trying to regain motivation that is needed to begin.  Alhamdulillah, I reflected on why I began and why I continue this undertaking that at times seemed so challenging. So I put my trust in Allah and put forth the effort. Telling myself to do what I can. I had to stress this to myself to do what I CAN.

Thus, I started my journey and this time I took to fasting and prayer and dua to strengthen myself, so I took this time during Ramadan to do just that.

Allah says,

“Those who believed (in the oneness of Allah-Islamic Monotheism), and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of Allah: verily in remembrance of Allah do hearts find rest.” (Ar Ra’d 13:28)

With homeschooling we can encounter  a lot of difficulties like lack of motivation, a lack of or limited resources ,energy, sickness and many more obstacles all of us our difficulties are different and on levels but, for sure what is mine may not be yours but the way through them all is to have sabr and complain to Allah . Putting our trust in Allah and putting forth the effort. When we do this along with having Taqwaa.

 Allah says,

” That will be an admonition given to him who believes in Allah and keeps his duty to him he will make away for him to get out (from every difficulties). (65:2)

I’m learning that it is not always easy but trying is always a must and the key.   Allah says,

“That will be an admonition given to him who believes in Allah and keeps his duty to him he will make away for him to get out (from every difficulties).  And he will provide for him from sources) he could never image and whoever put his trust in Allah, then He will suffice him. Verily, Allah will accomplish his purpose. Indeed Allah has set a measure for all things.” (At-Talaq: 3)

With all those great emotions that were there; a peace and strength of that I can became available for me. I realized that everything would be fine. That I was worrying too much and Allah would make a way. Then I remembered this and I became focus.

And each person will be paid in full of what he did: and He is Best Aware of what they do.

And those  who disbelieved will be driven to hell in groups till, when they reach it, the gates thereof will be opened (suddenly like a prison at the arrival of the prisoners). And its keepers will say,Did not the messengers come to you from yourselves,reciting to you the verses of your lord,and warning you of the Meeting of this Day of yours?" They will say: "yes," but the Word of torment has been justified against the disbelievers

It will be said (to them): "Enter you the gates of hell, to abide therein. And (indeed) what an evil abode of the arrogant!"

And those  who kept their duty to their Lord will be led to Paradise in groups,till when they reach it,and its gates will be opened (before their arrival for their reception) and its keepers will say: Salaamu 'Alaikum ( peace be upon you)! You have done well, so enter here to abide therein."

And they will say: "All praises and thanks are to Allah who has fulfilled his promise to us and has made us inherit this land. We can dwell in Paradise where we will; how excellent a reward for the (pious,good)workers!" (Zumar 39: 70 - 74)

Need I write more!

Sincerely,

Umm Anisa