The Delusion of Despair

At times it feels like my heart drops from its place of residence,

 Dangling in the cavity of my breast,

 Until every beat is felt within the depths of my stomach.

It feels like an end that won’t end,

Perpetually causing the painless pain that paralyzes progress, dimes hope...

And encourages despair to breed like rabid rabbits that spread the disease of failure,

Until I’m convinced that success is not but a pleasant illusion,

 Or that which rarely manifests and when it does manifest...

Is only the reality of others.

The reality of others...the reality of others?

What is wrong with me?

This is not reality,

All those who tread upon the straight path as explained by the Prophets and Messengers (May the Peace and Blessings of Allah be upon them),

Will be blessed with success,

With this I remind myself,

As well as the fact,

 That...

 Allah grants success to whom He pleases,

That and also the fact,

That Allah has reserved the true success for those who truly believe,

So now...

If I beg Allah and strive with all that I have however little the amount,

While striving to breathe my last as one who believes,

Shall I in reality grieve?

Thus,

I ponder that it is better for me to raise my head,

 So head!

I refuse to allow you to slumber,

Slowly suffocating in the palms of my idle hands,

Yes, it is superior to stand,

Patiently work,

 While pleading the Creator to grant me success,

 Yes, 

Yes, it is far better to prepare,

Than fall victim to the Delusion of Despair.

 “Certainly no one despairs of Allah’s Mercy, except the people who disbelieve.”

{Yusuf: 87}